Aaron Griffin, I have played games for years and never had the emotional reactions I had to games I played last year.  At least for me, it’s not something I can plan on.  It’s just something that happens.  We all build walls up around our emotions.  It’s part of becoming an adult.  But every now and then something happens at the table (or in life) that illustrates just what a shitty job you have done making those walls.  That hurt just waltzes in and sits down on your couch and makes itself at home like it was the easiest thing in the world.  It’s terrifying.  It’s frustrating because you are telling yourself “Get a grip, man!  It’s just a game!”  Maybe it’s part of getting older, I have no idea.  All I can say is that it happens and there’s no controlling it.